Aidan, Finley, Motherhood, Parenting

Life’s Greatest Role Yet

Have you ever been to a play or even the circus? If not imagine it is your first time as a guest in the audience. You are so ecstatic as you find your seats. You can smell popcorn and other goodies in the air. The lights start to dim, the music plays and the performance begins. You sit in awe of the dancers, singers, jugglers or actors. Everything around you fades away as you become part of the performance. As a member of the audience, you rarely catch mistakes that are made by the performers (unless you have been in the business at some point). Before you know it, the show is over and you are already planning your next visit. When the curtain closes, the performers go back to their dressing rooms and you head home. While you were sitting in your seat and snacking on popcorn, the performers were hard at work doing everything possible to make sure their performance would entertain and keep you entranced. They had been practicing for months to get this show perfect for you (someone they don’t even know). Working long hours, seven days a week, these men and women put their other interests and aspirations on hold, because this is what they want to be doing. This is their job and they want to succeed at it. They want to make a difference in your life, even for just two hours. Their abilities are critiqued by experts, by their fellow performers and themselves. Their job while enjoyable, is physically, emotionally and mentally exhausting. They have put every ounce of themselves into being the best they can be. Each day, they take the mistakes made during the performance and work to improve on them. They will be even better next show, because they have learned through trial and error what works best for the audience.

I’m currently starring in a production called “Motherhood.” Many of you have held the same role. I currently play the lead part, which is very time demanding and stressful. I work seven days a week and 24 hours a day. When I go to bed at night, my performance that day plays through my head on repeat. What could I have done better for my audience (kids)? Did they enjoy the performance (their day with mom)? Did they understand the morals and values taught to them during that short time? Will they go to sleep that night remembering the good parts and wanting to return for another performance? As a mother, I feel like a performer. Constantly juggling the many responsibilities of a parent, while trying to balance on the beam of sanity. I absolutely adore my children and am playing the greatest role of a lifetime, but that doesn’t mean it comes without struggles. Each day is a new performance. It either goes really well or needs improvement. I am critiqued by others around me. Some have negative opinions and will gladly share them with you. These critics you just want to hand a stale bag of popcorn and a watered down soda to. Other critics recognize the role you are playing is tough and you are working on it daily. Many of them have been in the same boat and are cheering you on. They are the ones who are giving you the standing ovation and continue to support you in your endeavor as a performer. I have found that the toughest critic is the lead actor. Most days I am very hard on myself. Second guessing my performance on a daily basis. It isn’t until I hear from the only critics that matter (my kids), that I realize I am not doing so badly after all. When they wake up in the morning with a huge smile on their faces and shouting for me, I remember that the performance the day before doesn’t really matter. I should only focus on the day ahead, while making the improvements needed to better myself as a mom.

My children mean the absolute world to me. They have given me the role of a lifetime. A role I wouldn’t turn down for anything in the world. Despite the hardships I face, I know that these little boys love me and are appreciative of everything I do for them. I also recognize that they are my favorite critics, because they are the ones in the audience who cannot wait to come back for another performance. They are very forgiving of the mistakes I make as a mom and are willing to help me improve on my performance. While this role has been challenging, it was given to me by the greatest director ever (God). I couldn’t ask for a better life.

Sorry for all the similes. This post came to me in the middle of the night, while nursing my youngest. I have realized that when inspiration strikes, I have to quickly write my thoughts and ideas down or my mom brain will forget it all. Very much like the wet laundry that has been sitting in the washer for the past two days!

I hope you are cherishing your roles in life. Whether you play the role of parent, teacher, spouse or some other important role, know that our director chose you for a reason.

Much love and blessings,

Mommy Molly

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Aidan, Creating Memories, Family, Fatherhood, Finley, Motherhood

A Letter to My Boys

Aidan and Finley,

The moment you both entered into our world, were two of the best days of our lives. Holding you for the first time, changed me in ways you will never understand. You make me so incredibly happy to be your momma. It has scared me bringing you into a world that seems filled with such cruelty and destruction. I look around and I am afraid of all the what ifs that could happen as you grow up. As a mother, all I ever want for you is a life filled with happiness, health and love. I pray you find the good in this world and you help spread the compassion and love I have seen in you since day one. My boys, you are the greatest treasures I could have ever found. When I look at your smiling faces, I know your daddy and I won the jackpot having you both as our sons. I never expected I would be a “boy mom,” but I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world. Each day is a new adventure with my little explorers. Not only do we discover fun things to do together, but I learn more and more about each of you. Aidan you have such an amazing personality. You make me laugh everyday. You are also as ornery as your father and both grandpas. Finley, your smiles and laugh can light up a room. When you see your big brother coming, you beam with delight. I can already tell, that you both will bring happiness to all those around you. Your bond as brothers has been inseparable since the beginning and I truly believe you will grow to be best friends. Though you are still young, your daddy and I already know you will both do great things in this world. My boys, you are the reason for life itself. You have made me realize my destiny has always been to be a mother. Your mother! God has given your daddy and I the greatest gifts. I write this letter, so that on the bad days we can remember that each day is a fresh start. I also want to remind you both and myself, that to see the good in this world, we have to be the good. That means to show kindness to everyone, even those who have hurt you in the past. Always forgive those who have hurt you. Most times, it is unintentional and that person hasn’t been shown any kindness. Also, forgive yourselves for the mistakes you make. We are all human and have to have grace with ourselves. Remember, to always do your best in all areas of life. Working hard will only bring about positivity and blessings in your lives. Respect and honesty are important in all relationships. Make sure you show it and receive it. Finally, God and family should always come first. They are the ones who will always be there for you. The love and support you will find is endless. Your dad and I pray that you remember these lessons through your walk of life. It will not always be an easy road. You will face struggles, no matter what paths you take. We will always be here to support you and give you advice. I will never turn down a hug or a snuggle session on the couch. As you grow older, our love for you both only grows stronger. Never doubt the love we have for you. My boys, I truly cannot wait to see the men you become. I know you will both lead remarkable lives and I am so proud of you both! Your mommy and daddy love you to the moon and back!

Love momma

Aidan, Family, Fatherhood, Finley, Motherhood

Life Changes

To say my life has changed these past six weeks is an understatement. I have had to relearn how to care for a newborn, while chasing after a rambunctious toddler. As if that wasn’t enough of a challenge, add in Nathan starting his new job as a principal. While Nathan works a nine hour day, my day consists of about 20 diaper changes, 10-15 toddler tantrums, 8-12 feedings and lots of snuggles between the two boys. I have never felt so exhausted, yet so happy in my life. While this season has been filled with lots of changes and we have had to quickly adapt to them, our family continues to be blessed. In the span of one month our lives got a whole lot crazier.

We all seem to be handling the changes differently. Nathan as always, handles anything thrown his way with ease and grace. He is such a wonderful father to our boys and has been a big help to me around the house, despite working a new job. Aidan is 100% toddler. He goes from being extremely affectionate to his little brother, to wanting anything Finley is using. Aidan is definitely having to learn how to share toys and mommy and daddy’s attention. While it hasn’t been any easy adjustment for him, he is an amazing big brother to Finn and absolutely adores helping his “bubba.”

Out of everyone, I think I have had the hardest time adjusting to all the changes in our little family. Since I am a stay at home mom, I am with the boys 24/7. It has not been easy trying to balance raising a toddler and a newborn, while trying to keep the house running. I have had to change the expectations I have always set for myself. Rather than keeping an immaculate home and having a gourmet meal on the table, my focus is making lasting memories with my boys. I have also had to learn to be more patient with Aidan, as he adjusts to these changes as well. Each day has its own personal challenges, but I know God would not have given me anything I couldn’t handle.

While these changes haven’t been easy, they have been full of adventure and joy. Our family has truly been blessed these past six weeks. I am one lucky woman to have three such wonderful guys in my life. I cannot wait for Nathan and I to watch our two little boys grow up and see all the other changes God has planned for us!

Love and blessings,

Molly